Let me tell you something… in confidence

I am looking at a blank page with the word “Confidence” written in capital letters in a corner. And nothing comes to mind.

That was me a few days ago starting to think about this week’s picture: “confidence”.
Creativity”  seemed easier to me and with the rules I set myself for this project (more on that later in another blog post), I had difficulties to find a proper idea.
Looking at the whole list, I know that I will get this blank feeling again in the next weeks.

So, I looked at myself, at my past, my feelings and the first idea arrived.

Confidence as in self-confidence

[kon-fi-duh ns]
Belief in oneself and one’s powers or abilities; self-confidence; self-reliance; assurance

Self-confidence has always been something I struggled with.

Strangely enough, I don’t mind speaking in front of an audience (whatever the size, and I spoke in front of hundreds of people). Whether it is to speak about my work during a conference or as an actor during a play, when I am on stage, in the spotlight, I am not really me. I play another version of myself: a character who looks like me and has my knowledge but he is full of confidence because he does not want to disappoint his work or his fellow actors.
In those cases, I know what to do or what to say (and I feel like a fish in water improvising on stage) and confidence is my friend.

Experience tells you what to do; confidence allows you to do it.Click To Tweet

It’s more in my daily life, when I am myself, that I lack this “safety blanket” and I don’t feel confident enough to share my thoughts and feeling. That’s when I freeze and shut down.

So, the first picture that I had in mind was to have a stormtrooper about to speak in front of a large audience, frozen with fear and looking for some self-confidence.

And for this one, I tried different things. I started with an overhead view of the stormtrooper facing the crowd, but I thought the story could not be understood easily.

Confidence 1.0
Confidence 1.0

So, I lowered the point of view of my camera and had the stormtrooper face me with the big crowd in the background. I find this second one much better.

Confidence 1.1
Confidence 1.1

But confidence has several meanings.
After this first idea, I was confident enough with this word. So I decided to also explore another meaning of the word.

Confidence is also a secret

[kon-fi-duh ns]
a secret that is confided or imparted trustfully

As I told you, I have trouble sharing my feelings with others.
But sometimes, you need a lot of self-confidence, to really tell people what you think, either openly or in confidence. And that is the subject of my second picture: a stormtrooper confiding his own feelings to a friend.

Confidence 2.0
Confidence 2.0
The most beautiful thing you can wear is confidence.Click To Tweet

The more I think about this 52-word challenge, the more interesting I find it.
It will be a way for me to reflect upon myself.

Maybe with this project, I’ve found a way to express myself to the world, in confidence.

Julien / Ballou34

Aeronautics engineer by day, toy photographer by night.
Exploring the world with his plastic figures.

2 Replies to “Let me tell you something… in confidence”

  1. As always a great picture.
    Thank you for sharing your feelings on this word.
    I believe that by the end of this year all of us will have learned new things about ourselves and the rest of the community.
    Looking foward to seeing the rest of your journey.

  2. I wouldn’t be surprised that the lack of confidence in social situations is quite common among toy photographers. I also don’t have problems talking in public but I’ve always had trouble going towards people, particularly when I don’t know them well. I’m glad that over the years I’ve improved by forcing myself gradually in uncomfortable situations but there’s still a long road ahead towards confidence.

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